Smile and Die

Let the world inspire you.
never fear,
never dwell.
deje que su alma te guíe.

#HOOPING #COMMUNITY #UNITE. I’ve wanted a #wooden #hoop for almost four years now. Since I started hooping. Has anyone tried the ones from woodhulahoop.com? Or does anyone have any opinions either pro or con for a wood hoop? #help #advice #hooplah #hula #hoop #wood #engrave #handmade #cedar #review #pro #con

I don’t pity her.
I don’t feel sorry for her.
I don’t hate her.

I hate what she did.

I hate that her life has digressed so completely from what she had envisioned that she now feels the juvenile need to blame everyone else instead of facing reality.

I hate that I have become the outlet for her anger.

No I didn’t steal her boyfriend.
No I didn’t ruin her grades.
No I didn’t cause her eating disorder.

I did try to help her.

I did everything within my power for her even though she is a bully. Even though she has mistreated her “friends” for years and even though I am scared shitless of her, I tried to help.

So now I’m trying to understand.

To understand why she would become so angry at me.
To understand why she would transfer schools and claim it to be my fault.
To understand why two months later she would throw sixty eggs at my house.

Sixty eggs of hate directed straight at me.

I am left with only one option, and I hate her for pushing me to this. Although I do feel sorry for her as well. I’m sorry that she doesn’t see clearly how her mistreating everyone the way she does will result in her loneliness.

I pity that she wasn’t smart enough to come clean.

I pity her.
I feel sorry for her.
I hate her.

But not in any of the ways she was expecting.

I made a box. #geliplate #usingthekidsleftoverpaint #rainbow #acrylic #box #sun @thedodgycodger #TOOMUCHART
Afternoon walks #descentintotheforest #ricketystairs #yeg #forest #nature
This printing business is getting out of control. #latenightarting #alwaysturnsoutbetter #geliplate #acrylics #fire #record #art #latenight (at The Fabulous House of Umrysh)
The best stairs are the wild ones. #mombribedmewithlevatogoonawalk #bestbribeever #rivervalley #yeg  (at Biological Sciences Building - University of Alberta)
My favourite candies😍😍 #cantevenhandlethishappiness #iwishtheywereeasiertofind #mymomsfriendsarethebest
Doctors office yet again. #whycantijustbehealthy #sickbeforetour #waitingistheworstpart  (at Mira Health Centre)
My mandalas are starting to repeat themselves. #needtogetoutsidemycomfortzone #geliplate #mandala #art #artist #likeforlike #teal #acrylics
Bubble blowing at the wedding. photocred to @felkadry #happyfeels #bubbles #wedding #happy #purebliss
Probably my favourite fire photo of me so far. #donttrythisathomekids #myboyfriendisanenabler #takingphotosinsteadofstoppingme <3 #firehoop #fire #dangerous #summer #yeg #alberta #art #canada #likeforlike  (at Westmount Community Hall)
Sometimes nature decides to show up and remind me that Edmonton isn’t such a terrible place. #ifonlyitlastedlonger #ijustwannaleavehere #8daysuntilmontana #13daysuntilafrica #sunset #yeg #alberta #canada
🎶We’re off to see the wedding, the wonderful wedding of Kulpa.🎶 Best evening with the best people for the best reason ❤ 🎶 #mybestfriendisgorgeous #inher #royalblue #headdress  🎶 #wedding #nature #leaves #yeg #love  (at The Fabulous House of Umrysh)
Now that @leftandfound has her wedding presents I can share @felkadry and my newest art find. RECORD PAINTING 😍 #record #acrylics #art #narwhal #relativeofthe #UNICORN #rainbow #freehand #geliplate #magical #soproud #AINTNOBODYGUNNALISTENTOTHISNOW
Art day with Fatme ❤ #vangoghaintgotnothingonus #stunning #geliplate #bestonvestmentofmylife #fatmedontevenMENTIONthedresses #goldenacrylic #art